I used to write a lot, even blog sometimes. I have a stack of black journals tucked away, full of occasional and sometimes daily scribbles. At a certain point though it became a place for self-criticism, self-abuse, bad mojo. I have almost never re-read them, and even if I wanted to now they're sitting in a storage locker in another country. I want to get back into writing but I'm afraid of it. I'm afraid I'll just spit out vitriol and keep spinning in my negative thoughts.
I think part of my fear also comes from perfectionism. Every time I start to write something I get overwhelmed by the task of finding all the best sources, reading up, making myself an expert. Then the text just dies in a folder on my machine, never to be seen again.
I recently saw somebody post that when they are feeling creatively blocked they get out of it by shitposting. So this is my shitposting blog. I will dump whatever here, because its anonymous, and I don't have to give a shit. I can write with abandon. That sounds freeing, and it makes me excited to write again.
I'm not sure how often I'll post or what I'll post about. That's the idea. I don't expect any readers, but maybe people will read and that's cool too. Also, maybe I'll be more likely to reflect on what I've written in the past if it's on a blog rather than tucked away in little black notebook with bad handwriting.
So here we go.